Where do you put sorrow…

That has no where to go?

How do I describe an aching that is part of my soul?

I’m aching and I don’t know why

The things that I‘ve forgotten, somehow stay

I forget.. and still my heart will remember as long as it beats

My soul will remember as long as earth is where it wanders

So I ache without cause and fear something I know not

You can’t rid yourself of something you can’t name

My spirit slowly burns to ash

It curls and disintegrates like a flower petal

Weeping with the leaves after a summer storm

Too soft for these unknown aches that follow like thunder

I pretend and believe it’s all just a memory, maybe sometimes a dream

But then the aching catches up to me and I fall just as quickly again

This one weakness that holds onto me so desperately

It wouldn’t survive without me

Serving and catering to its every whim

Still I can’t let go and do everything it wants anyway

It promises me the one thing I’ve ever wanted, safety

Even though I know

It’s the one thing I’ll never get

Because the unknown aching is something only I can see

I point to it but they look away

Past it, searching for nothing

Sometimes I think they can see it, reflected in my eyes

But my irises have already swallowed it like the sea

Deep blue and endless salty waves, this thing I fear

Doesn’t breathe this air